Last evening I was watching the reality show "The Apprentice", at the court room, Donald Trump said "Life is not fare. I tell you what, life is suck!"
Yea, Life Is Not Fare, but God Is Good. He Is Good All The Time and All The Time, God Is Good.
I have left my good job for a year now, venturing into online business.
Have I made it BIG?
NOPE! I am not even able to make ends meet. Especially the last few weeks, I was really very down many times, but everytime when I was down, God lifted me up with His love and mercy. He would point me to the brighten side of the journey and provide me the support.
Life nowadays is Iike roller coaster, ups and downs, and lately I am at my wit end, I am really into the red, but God is always good, when I am desperate, He always shows me a way.
God will make a way when it seems to be no way.
The past two days I was attending a seminar "Community Penetration Seminar" organised by my church. Basically, the seminar touches on the why and how we should reach out to the people who are not reached or under reached, and most of them are the poorer people, the less or not educated population. It's aim is also to share the church's vision with the church members thought there were participants from other churches.
It was a very good seminar and definitely I learnt a lot thought this was the second time I was attending this seminar.
But the thing that striked me the most was on the last day at the last hour, our Senior pastor mentioned the church is planning to have a prison ministry next year.
When I quit my job with the belief that God has called me to so, I asked God, why you asked me to leave my comfort zone and embark on this online business....... and this word flashed across my mind "Prison Ministry". I knew nothing about prison ministry, I knew no one from the prison nor prison ministry.
But the very next day when I flipped open the newspaper I saw a report stating that it is a up hill task for the ex-convict to get a job.
Wow, it striked me that I might be able to help if I am successful with my venture. I could pass down my knowledge and skill to these people and they can make a living on their own without working for someone, and most importantly is to get their dignity and confidence back.
But I knew, God wanted more from me and from them, He wants them to be saved.
I kept this in my mind. I started looking out for opportunity.
Yeah, I did manage to get some connection to the prison, but somehow I was not keen to take any further action. I just did not feel right..... I knew when it is from God, I will do it with a lot of passion and peace, so I left it as it was.
But this time, its different, when my Senior Pastor mentioned "Prison Ministry", I knew this might be the one though I need to confirm with God.
If this ministry had started this year, I would not be able to contribute as I am still learning the ropes, if it starts later part of next year, I would be much more confident to get involved.
God's timing is always perfect.
When I looked back the past one year, my life was a total different from the one I used to have.
Life then was good, I could buy anything I liked, patronized restaurant as and when I felt like it, would go for overseas holidays at least once a year. But the past one year, I even avoided eating at the eatery at the shopping certre as it cost more if I visit a hawker centre. I needed to watch every cent I spent.
There was one time at the shopping centre (happened that I passed by there), when I looked through the window seeing people picking their cloths, I was feeling miserable, my eyes were wet. I have been wearing the same few T-shirt for the whole year. Even last year Christmas Caroling, I needed to borrow one white Long sleeve shirt from my church mate coz I do not have a white shirt.
But I knew God has a purpose for me and I needed to press on.
Now upon hearing this piece of news, I knew where I am heading to. Praise the Lord.
The past one year was tough if without God's help and His gift of faith for me, it is humanly impossible for me to do what I have done.
Outwardly, I am still working really hard for financial support as my venture has showed little result but I knew a breakthrough is coming .........
Inwardly, I know the God is leading me by my side and am taking every step by Faith.
Life Is Not Fare, but God is Good!